Feel good today again other than stomach ache. That does not make me feel too good. Need to shit about 5 pounds to feel better i think. Going to Michelles today for Thanksgiving. My honey started me on shakes today to battle my weight loss. I am positive it is going to work.
I feel 99% this morning! Hope it lasts all day. Lots to do today so we’ll see. Love my hair today.
woke up feeling good again today. lasted till about noon. I was going to go get some things done this morning but never got to them. will have to wait till tomorrow cause i’m too fucking tired and week to do it now. bleah. tomorrow is another day
Feel pretty good this morning. At 148 and change. I don’t want to eat breakfast this morning cause I want to work and have no pain. I will eat more later today.
i feel better this morning than I have for over 10 days. I’d say I’m 80% this morning. Hope it lasts. I have shit to do. Car emissions. Home Depot. Office work. Office clean.
barely thought I would feel decent again after that fucked up Monday. I am determined to have some motherfucking fun today. Feel about 75 percent back.
Today is the first day of chemo. I thought it would be one day every two weeks but my asshole haji dr failed to tell me I would also be taking it home with me via an attached bag that I continue getting it for 3 days straight. Can’t shower, can’t unhook it, nothing.
before the actual infusion of chemo my gut and instinct were screaming at me to get up, walk out and live as long as I can as is. like Paula said, if I weren’t already dwindling down now she could see it. I am wasting away slowly so I hope the chemo will help me after it hurts me however it and my body decide how it’s gonna hit me.
Spent 2 hours getting ready, getting premeds and whatever. Just now started a bag that will go 2 hours. That is bag one of three.
this sucks cock.
I want a cigarette. This is like going on an overseas flight.
My honey, awesome honey Paula. Im so glad she is here with me but this is gonna get boring as hell. She’s gone to find some snacks now. I miss her already.
