I tried it again on a lower level hoping it would not affect me in a way like the first time. The first couple of days seemed fine but the last two days have been hell. High fever with all the extreme fever side effects. Sore, cold, chilled, fever, headache, etc. This is not how i want to spend my time left here. It makes NO sense to me to continue chemo. Why would I want to feel like shit to live a little longer, feeling like shit? I don’t and I won’t. Whatever time I have left I will spend feeling as good as i can, doing the stuff I want to do. Without the chemo, I have symptoms but they can be controlled to a degree of reason and I feel like myself. That is the life I choose. I want quality over quantity.
